Love Ourselves

Assalam.

I would like to quote 3 lines from a poem written by Derek Walcott. 

"You will love again the stranger who was your self.

Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart

to itself, to the stranger who has loved you."

Mind is a great tool for human. Use it in compliment with brain. Brain owns by a body. So, who has full control of a mind?

The brain's master.

My Goose's Dream

My Goose's Dream

I fell, shattered, wounded

Like a glass full of air

It bleeds nothing

But I have dreams

I'll pour love

Bloom with red passion

And

I will fight, shine, win

by AmirullahZul

Assalam readers,

Time flies and my brain get rusty. Too much air, and I can hear empty can clinking, and guess who's the one responsible for that. These past few days, including the last few months, I have made a decision that would be one of the most hardcore life-changing and future-dependent. It was drastic, some people considered it as too late, wasting of times, and more on the emotional part, and I should stop listing it down now. 

I did it for the sake of who I am in the future. To please me, now and later on. I live in a society, or a bloodline that'd question me of what will I do with my graduation scroll, my degree, and of my days as a human, and in the end, I will be the one, not to please me, but to please others. 

I have dreams, and these dreams changes countless times - from childhood to adulthood, and when I get old, will I ever have one dream that I will live with? I can't guarantee. 

For everything, I am being me, doing something recklessly just for me. And others, if you have nothing else to say other than giving me discouragements, then please don't. I beg your mercy, give me supports. If you're holding my hands, you're one of a kind. 

Please, make du'a for my fresh application as an IIUM student.

In Soo In - Goose's Dream

Resipi Ice Cream

Assalamualaikum and greeting lazybums.

Yang rajin jangan terasa. Hehe.

Okay hari ni, aku nak share satu resipi yang simple. Kadang-kadang petang hari, cuaca panas. Kalau ade benda sejuk untuk dimakan, mesti best kan? Here it is, recipe creamy ice cream! Actually, recipe ni ade dalam internet. Tapi dalam post ni, aku nak ajar korang jadi creative. Yeah!

Niche and Paradigm Shift

Assalam and greetings dear readers.

First and foremost, I'm sorry for not being able to update my blog for a month, maybe more. Second, this post is only for readers who can take a chance to leap from a thinking to another thinking, bear with other's reasons, be with another groups, and positively and intellectual person. In other words, I hope my dear readers can be open-minded. : )

Dalam kurang dari sehari, aku akan balik ke Kuala Lumpur bersama 5-9 orang rakan seperjuangan. And the day after tomorrow, on Sunday, kami akan berangkat ke Busan, South Korea untuk menjalankan satu program berbentuk Islami bersama sekumpulan organisasi yang dinamakan Salam Nuri di bawah jagaan Korean Muslim Federation, yang akan bertempat di Seoul.

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Scars

We all have our scars.

From loving someone too deeply.

From protecting someone so much.

I got these scars for you.

It looks like its gonna bleed and I know it hurts so much.

But none of these scars makes me love you less.

I love these scars so much, I could cry.

It doesn't matter if it bleeds.
These scars are my strength.
These scars keeps me well.
These scars reminds me of you.

And I hope I will never forget this feeling.

Happy 21st Birthday Hakimi!

Assalamualaikum and Greetings
To the beautiful ladies and handsome gentlemen of Land of Oz, Narnia, Wonderland and Earth.

Today, 26th of May of 2013 marks the 21st birthday of a good friend of mine.

A handsome young man from Kedah. Studying Manufacturing Engineering at IIUM Gombak. A guitarist. What else? Just give him a call and you'll find out about him yourself.

We had to make it a perfect surprise but it turns out to be that he knew it all along after witnessing a dreadful white flour on my bed when I was out of the room. He was fortunate to know bout it but, you can't escape from hellish mind of 3 crazy friends. Hahaha...

So, we gave him flour to play with because we can't afford play-doh. But he want some food or snack, so we bought him New York Cheese Cake from Secret Recipe personally sponsored by QiQi.

Anyway, pal. I pray for your success in your miserably awesomely life. Our brotherhood is infinite over time. Please, don't calculate infinite over time.

Flour-ed Birthday Boy

From left : Syamim, Iqbal, Kimi, Marzuqi, Azriq and Izzul

Surprisingly surprised.

One slice of cake is enough. Thanks for the cake, Marzuqi!

 Sorry cake satu slice ja. Tapi aku jugak yang makan banyak. =.=

"They know how crazy you are but still choose to be seen with you in public."

Happy Birthday crazy friend.

The Awkward Moments

Assalamualaikum and greeting fellow beautiful, charming and handsome mates.

How's life? Banyak senang atau banyak susah? Kalau senang, share la sikit. Kalau susah, pi main jauh-jauh. Just kidding : )

Aku nak share something. Pernah tak korang mengalami situasi yang pelik? You can smell the awkwardness in the air as if it kills you but its fun. Mesti pernah la.

1. The Path Not Taken
Kadang-kadang kalau jalan, kita tak nampak pun orang kat depan. Contoh kalau korang layan phone atau jalan berpenjuru or any path it is. Korang jalan and then you bump into someone. Maybe tak langgar. But it's awkward, as you try to walk, he/she is trying to walk on the same path you're choosing. You move to the left, and that person move to the left too. You move to the right, that person move to the right. Maximum loops are 2 or 3. Bila dah tension, either one of you will say, "You go right, I go to the left". Either by words or simple signs.

2. Say My Name
Anyone with spec and you rarely use your spec? Or maybe you don't use spec in public? Or are you super-friendly?
Then I guess you're one of these people. Maybe korang tengah duduk somewhere, well I don't know, maybe at the cafe. Then there's one particular person yang korang kenal, maybe. Tanpa rasa segan silu, korang panggil and jerit nama.

Hoi Amir!!!!(lakonan semata-mata)

It turns out to be that person is not who you think he/she is. Yang paling pelik kalau orang tu datang, and you said, "Eh, salah orang".
I guess someone need to cover their face now. Confirm malu kan?

3. Who are you?
Mungkin pada zaman muda-mudi atau zaman lampau dulu, korang ni famous and friendly. Zaman kegemilangan bila korang ade battalion sendiri. Seluruh orang Kampung Pisang kenal. Tapi sejak merantau ke tempat orang, korang semakin membesar. Muka pun macam mak/bapak orang.
Bila balik kampung, korang terjumpa someone korang kenal. Tapi lupa nama. In your mind, "Aku kenal, tapi sapa nama budak ni?". Borak panjang sampai lewat malam and still takleh nak ingat nama dia. Lastly, idea datang.

Encik Amir : Eh, nak balik dulu ade hal. Nanti meet up lagi k. Aku rasa aku xdak number phone kau la.
Datuk J : Aku pun xdak.
Encik Amir : *Sepantas kilat mengeluarkan handphone* Ape number hp kau?
Datuk J : 010 bla bla bla
Encik Amir : Ape tadi? Eh, kau save sendiri la number hp kau kat handphone aku ni. Nanti aku miss call number kau. (alasan)
Datuk J : Okay. *save number dalam hp Amir*
Encik Amir : Alright.
Datuk J : Alright nanti jumpa lagi.
Encik Amir : No probs. Roger roger la. Assalam. 

Datuk J beredar dari stage.. 

Encik Amir : Oh, Joyah rupenye name dia ni. Aku ingatkan Jay-Z.

Pandai kan? Suroh orang tu save number dia sendiri dalam handphone korang. And then you got his/her name. Walla! Splendid!

4. Crap. Wrong Timing.
Situasi ini berlaku bila korang ada geng yang gila-gila. Padahal benda yang xdak benda, jadi awkward. =.=

Lady : Ehmm... Excuse me. I believe you have my mechanical pencil. Remember last time. You borrowed mine.
Guy : Oh right. Sorry I didn't realized that I still have it. Wait for a sec. *searching searching* 

Suddenly le friends screw up the moment. 

Friend 1 : Perghhhh. Dah pandai kau eh.
Friend 2 : Awek baru ke?
Friend 3 : Amboi.. Kemain lagi kau. Gadis melayu comel terakhir.
Friend 4 : You have my mechanical pencil. Pick up line power.

Lady : err.. Takpe la. Nanti awak bagi lain kali je k.  

The heck was that?

I believe you'll make this kind of reaction. And goodbye Lady. Your last meeting with her will be the day when you give her back the mechanical pencil. Muahaha. 

Kebanyakan awkward moments aku either no.1 or no.2. Aku pakai spec and I don't use it in public. 

And ada banyak lagi awkward moments. I believe some of you have your own stories. Bila fikir balik, korang ketawa sendiri. Another awkward moment. Haha

Anyway, tell me yours. Awkwardness in the air.

Night Headline

Assalamualaikum people of the 6371 kilometers radius of planet Earth..

Malam ni malam yang indah. Well, actually aku nak tidur awal. But I can't. Biological sleep-time dah rosak. Anyway, ada bnyak benda yang ingin aku bincangkan. Just some thoughts. Kalau kita ada persefahaman, tahniah. Kalau xdak, mohon suarakan.

1. PRU
Setinggi-tinggi tahniah dan takziah kepada pihak yang telah meraih kemenangan dalam PRU ke-13 pada 5 Mei 2013 yang lepas. Congrats. So, now work it out government! Banyak benda yang telah dimasukkan dalam manifesto, boleh tgok picture kat bawah. Well, I'm only interested in lebuh raya PAN-BORNEO.

Well hey, jangan lupa tepati janji anda. Itu untuk rakyat. Bukan untuk aku. Ingin aku petik satu kata-kata dari facebook.

Kalau betul, kita sokong.
Kalau salah, kita tegur.
Kalau degil, kita ubah!

Ingat ya, perjuangan belum habis. PRU14 nanti, Bangkit Anak Muda!

2. Racism
The hot topic for this week. Staring the Chinese Malaysian as the 'People Voices', Utusan Malaysia as the main 'Antagonist', and remaining Malaysian as the 'Prosecutor'.

Photo credits to wanista.com

From the picture above, Utusan Malaysia started a hate fire headline filled with racist propaganda, mentioning the Chinese for being ungrateful. Berikutan dengan gaya tulisan daripada Utusan Malaysia dan juga Kosmo!, seolah-olah menyalahkan kaum tempatan cina di Malaysia yang tidak mengundi Barisan Nasional pada PRU13. Ini kerana DAP bnyak memenangi kerusi di sesetengah kawasan, terutamanya Penang.

Apakah gerangan pihak penulis menulis tulisan yang bertuliskan isi penting berbaur perkauman? You may claim that you're not being racist, but obviously you are. Is it necessary to make a fuss over this? Seriously these newspapers need some refreshment in their department. Sangat menyedihkan bila konsep yang diamalkan iaitu 1 Malaysia, dirosakkan oleh orang sendiri. Kata mahu hidup bersama, tapi statement macam nak makan orang. Bersifat talam dua muka? Talk to the hand. Tangan aku ada dua.

3. Government Service Tax(GST)
Another congratulation to all voters, and non-voters as well. Believe me, I do care bout taxes in Malaysia. Tak tau la nak cakap apa, sebab kurang baca bahagian taxes ni.
Cuma ada satu persoalan. 5 tahun lagi, berapa bnyak tax baru yang akan diperkenalkan?

4. Hiasan Jalanan
Tamatnya PRU13 bermaksud segala jenis advertisement haruslah di kemas balik. Tak kisah la dari parti mana pun, kemas cepat sikit. Kalau boleh kumpulkan. Mana yang boleh guna balik, simpan dan bersihkan. Banyak gila pembaziran dalam PRU. Gantung sana sini dan sangat memeranjatkan bagi sesetengah pihak, sampai ke Youtube pon ada advertisement. Ni memang bermati-matian nak advertising. Aku bercakap ni atas idea yang sama, diutarakan oleh Dr.Zaharuddin dalam Facebook beliau. He said it, sangat membazir.

5. IIUM Semester 2 2012/2013 Final Examination
At last, xdak kaitan dengan politik. Lega la kan. At least 2 minggu lagi nak Final Exam. Mohon sifat malas lari dari aku. Nyah kau langit ke tujuh.

That's all from me folks. Til we meet again in another unfortunate events.

Malaysia GE #13

I made this picture specifically for Malaysia's General Election 13.

Pada tarikh aku post gambar ni, ada lebih kurang seminggu lagi nak mengundi and belum cukup genap 21 tahun lagi. (T_T)

Oleh itu, kepada seluruh warga rakyat jelata orang mahupun yang ghaib, yang secara sah tinggal di Malaysia, undilah pemimpin yang berkaliber. Jangan dok canang sana sini, mengundi pangkah dacing bulan roket, tapi tak tau orang yang korang undi tu buat apa. 

Anyway, INI KALI LAH!

An Untold Answer

Assalamualaikum and greetings

On this moment, I'm in a state where I'm very determine with my life. Well, after undergo almost every factors, reasoning and excuses, I see myself as branches on a tree.

There's something that I want to do but I can't. There's something that I don't want to do but I must.

There's something that I want to do and I can.

The only thing that I'm satisfied with what I did is studying and doing community services. Apart of that, I don't know.

The more I love something, the more obstacles come. I seek forgiveness...

I need PRINCIPLES

Assalamualaikum and greetings folks!

It's hard for me to admit it but I'm the worst in making decisions. It takes more times, as if I'm waiting for my sister to finish their make up session in front of the mirror.

（。-＿-。）

Well, maybe its because of what I stand for. I tend to look at the conditions, factors and possible consequences rather than giving a suggestions completely based on my thinking.

Though my brain works well in panic mode, I can't do it well without further investigations and experiments. Now, we're talking science.. Pfft~

Sometime, I feel like I need a troubleshoot system in my brain just like each computers in this world.

Anyway, chill bro. Relax sudah.

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Semester 3 Strategic Planning

Assalamualaikum and Greetings earth folks

Today marks the first day of Semester 3 of my Degree. There's nothing much to say bout what should I do or what I want to do next because every semester, the same thing will be done. Study study study...

Unfortunately, my result on last semester was incredibly stupidly hideous. Never once in my life, I get that kind of result. I was shocked and speechless. So, I did my own postmortem after punching a wall and mourn for two days.

Last semester, I was pretty busy and I don't blame that schedule. I was busying myself with wrong activities. I play games hard, goof around like nobody else and I'm in my own world. I don't even know why am I so lazy last sem and it kills me right now, knowing how stupid I was.

So, this semester I did some changes. First thing first, I deleted some games. Goodbye DotA, HoN, RO2, and etc. Second, knowing my priority. With schedule or without one, if I can't discipline myself to follow my priority, any of my planning will be useless. Next, rearrange my schedule. Intensive strategic schedule! No good schedule, no time management.

Please o please, I don't want to blame anybody else. My mistake is my responsibility and I'm confronting it with full head-on from now on.

O Allah, please guide me to be a better muslim scholar. Amin..

Short Notice

Assalamualaikum and greetings folks.

[This is a short post]

Alhamdulillah for the courage that has been given to me, I would like to announce that this is my not-so-new blog. It's newly adapt as public blog. It was once a private blog which I used as my virtual diary. You may see that there are 5 posts so far since I'd deleted some of my private posts.

InsyaaAllah sometimes the post will be written in English, kadang-kadang dalam Bahasa Melayu. Campur boleh kan?

Happy blogging and reading. Cheers :)

Tolerance 0%

Assalamulaikum and Greetings

This post is prior to a minor discussion in IIUM community.

That discussion, reminds me of how you guys don't wanna live in diversity. No tolerance, never wanna share your thoughts, blinded by your superiority and in the end, assabiyah accumulates slowly. 

Reminds me again how people 'used' to say, "Hate the sin, not the sinner". Because nowadays, people just say, "You're the sin, so get the hell out of my face and go to hell".

In the end, the one who are left outside and discriminated, will eventually, be apathetic. At this state, there's no chance for sorry and no way for integration.

I truly agree with the consequences of accepting, but accept is subjective. Accepting can be good, unless you accept it blindly, then you're a dumb. Accepting can be an open arm to brotherhood and to show your modesty.

and I will destroy myself if I'm wrong. Tell me if I'm wrong. Do tell me if no tolerance should be done. Remind me again if accepting should be their part only. Teach me the right way if modesty isn't need in this situation.

Rejuvenate

Assalamualaikum and greetings

[This is gonna be a short post]

Everyday of my life since that day I entered my new semester, my schedule is filled with activities, programs and my own homework. There's a time when I think, I'm pretty stupid, to accept all of these works that have been given to me and when the critical time comes, I want to shut down my brain for awhile and wake up when the right time comes.

So, I think again.
-LOADING-

I'm the one who accept it. Yes, I'm the one who give them hopes when they need me the most. Why would I back off? I won't and I'm sorry for my faults. Trust me and I will be your backbones. InsyaAllah, all of our works will get barakah from Allah, The Almighty One.

Troubleshoot?

Assalamualaikum and greetings

Living around with lots of different peoples is very challenging. There's a twisted fate in every human where they won't find a perfect place to live just by themselves. Human can't live alone, so they had to confront different types of peoples, live in diversity and blend with the community.

So, which types do you like? Loving, kind, helpful and lots more. To list it down with lots of 'flowers' and 'love heart' is too rhetoric. I wouldn't mind if you want to, but it isn't easy.

For me, instead of reminding myself to search those types of people, I prefer to avoid these types of people.

1. Stupid : They're so clever in making decision. They don't even care of other's feeling, thoughts, ideas and as much as I concern, they're selfish.
2. Badass : Taking credits of other's works. Easy life eh?
3. Killing machine : They use you when they need you. Well of course, when you're nothing, then you're no use to them. Goodbye then.
4. Monkey : They're differences between annoying among friends and annoying in the middle of wanders. Don't agree or understand? Try to see monkey among themselves and then get one monkey among human.
5. Hantu : Anything you don't like. You define it yourself. 

Why do I choose to avoid instead of searching good qualities? You may call me pessimist but please remember this idiom,

"Prevention is better than cure."

People goof around being to defenseless,  being too optimist, hoping for the one to be as good as they expected. When the 'expected' are not as good as what they expect, they'll start to throw a tantrum, mad, angry, and unsatisfied with that particular person.

What I propose, is a new way where you expect, evaluate then you accept. Instead of accepting someone blindly, be prepared for any unwanted bad qualities. You may do the same thing to me cause I can't guarantee what qualities are with me. That's why preparation is needed. Instead of blaming for choosing the wrong person, be defensive. Just for your own good. : )